T’is the season

So Movies 24 changed over to Christmas 24, and both myself and Dylan sat and watched the Coca Cola Christmas advert together for the first time (for this Christmas) this week too. Now before you all start telling me “But it’s the beginning of November for heavens sake!!” Hear me out.

I have not been in a good place lately. It has been a mixture of a bad UC flare up, getting nowhere with job hunting (even though I had an e-mail last week and got excited as I was being put forward for a job by an agency… and haven’t heard a thing since and the general rule is if you don’t hear anything within 5 days it means “Thanks, but no thanks,”) on top of Dylan being super upset and not good himself and has since been put on a new medicine, plus as I haven’t been successful and found a job yet I had to have a review meeting at the job centre. And my parents went away on holiday with my brother and his family so I didn’t have them around. I ended up in a spiral of anxiety, feeling like I could barely breathe. It was at that point I phoned the doctors in tears. Enough was enough. The constant broken sleep night after night after night took its toll on me months and months ago, I most certainly am not the same person I used to be. I forget a lot of things and I am grumpy. My poor husband has been having to deal with the trains as well, lots of delays and cancellations this last fortnight after a long hard day at work, and then having to come home and comfort me. I needed to ask for help.

I still put on a smiling face to everyone, but once the door was closed, I would sit cuddling my gorgeous little boy and just burst into tears. We also got some terrible news in my birth group, and as daft as it sounds as we all only know each other online but we all consider ourselves friends including our children – as each of our kids are also “online friends” as far as we are all concerned. We have all been together as a group since we all got a positive test. Posting pictures and updates ever since so watching all of these babies becoming little people in their own right… and one of the little boys died on Halloween. It affected us all so much, and I absolutely broke down. I couldn’t imagine what his poor mother was going through. I found out on the Saturday and I gave Dylan extra hugs and kisses and held him so tightly.

With everything that was going on, I needed to try and get out of this hole. I have a doctors appointment this Friday for support. I have thrown myself into the world of planners, which with my memory of late can only be a good thing! I was having a pretty good day UC wise today so I ventured out to a baby group for the first time in months. While I was a bit apprehensive at first, it was at the library (and everyone knows how much I love the library!) and there was a familiar face taking the group which I didn’t realise it until I got there. And of course, my favourite time of year is Christmas so I have started all Christmassy things early. Except the decorations! Just movies and songs and thinking about Christmas here at the moment. Oh, and Hanson are doing a live streaming at the end of the month called “Finally it’s Christmas”, and I have such great memories from the last xmas live streaming that I will get up to watch this one. All the other live streamings I have passed on because I much rather have the sleep as much as I love the guys.
I’m also so in love with modern calligraphy, and Gareth bought me a calligraphy set one Christmas and I need to find it and get it out so I can play with it one weekend and do the class on Skillshare.

Dylan himself, apart from his teething and the battles we have trying to get him to go to sleep, is doing OK. We are having the toddler tantrums, he had a butterfly jigsaw puzzle for his birthday and he carries the face piece (the wooden cylinder in his left hand in the photo above) everywhere he goes. He is obsessed with that thing. And turning off the socket with the house phone in because everytime I switch it back on, it beeps, and so he loves it (as much as I tell him off for doing it)! His favourite food is blueberries. I keep a baggy of them in the freezer and put them in his pot straight after breakfast to defrost ready to have with his lunch. Then they are nice and soft for them to eat, and I always put extra in it so I can steal a few too 😉

We are getting there.

By | 2017-05-23T20:25:05+00:00 November 12th, 2014|General|0 Comments

Countdown begins…

3 days. 3 freaking days! My not-so-little-anymore baby turns 1 on Saturday! This past year has been incredibly… I don’t even know the right word as it was just a mish mash of emotions.

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“Seriously mum? Must you insist on taking photos all the time…?” He looks so grown up!

He has for quite a few nights been so clingy that I reverted back to co-sleeping if he absolutely would not sleep in his cot. He is really out of sorts with his cold and teething. Poor little dude. But doesn’t he look so handsome with his hair styled after his bath? LOL

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Dylan loves playing with his cousins. He got to hang out with little cousin Oscar on Gareth’s birthday at a big soft play in Cardiff.

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and lots of attention from his big cousins Elijah and Oliver too! Here he is being tickled by Elijah.

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We shall be having a small tea party for his birthday with Gareth’s family. Super grateful that Gareth, Dylan and myself will get to spend the day together for his birthday 🙂

At the moment I am lucky that the monkey is napping in his cot at the moment so I can get all my paperwork up together for the job centre as I have an appointment tomorrow. This fortnight has seen another 5 applications made, and currently one rejection but hearing anything back is quite rare, but at least getting that rejection means you know where you stand. There is one job in that 5 I am keeping everything crossed for. It is weekend work pretty close to home and more than minimum wage in retail and I put my CV in to the store last week.

But all the stressing about everything has had consequences and that is my colitis is flaring. I am putting off phoning the IBD team at hospital for now by upping my meds to what they were originally (3 caps, once a day was keeping symptoms at bay and the nurses agreed for me to keep it at that, so I’m back to 3 caps, twice a day).

Just need to keep a positive outlook on everything.

By | 2017-05-23T20:25:05+00:00 October 8th, 2014|Family, General|2 Comments

Currently | September

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Watching (kiddy shows) Jake & The Neverland Pirates, Curious George, (mummy shows) Tia & Tamera, The 100, new CSI, Bewitched, Melissa & Joey.

Feeling overwhelmed still, trying to juggle job searching and spending time with Dylan. And tired, though we are down to 2 wake ups at night minimum, it’s still exhausting.

Planning on doing something with the old blog, even though I say it all the time, I really REALLY need to get started on something.

Wondering how many times I need to say “NO! Don’t do that because…” to Dylan before he actually listens. His favourites are grabbing the bin and pulling it over to get at the rubbish inside, pulling DVDs off the shelves.

Disbelieving that he turns 1 in a mere 3 and a half weeks!

Waiting for autumn. The leaves have begun to change, and funnily enough this has only been my favourite season for the last couple of years 🙂

Wishing I could play my Sims game. So little time, and it doesn’t agree with the Mac very much, but so many memories dating back to my college days when I first started playing the original Sims. Not very interested in the Sims 4 at the moment.

Devising a plan of action for next week, when it comes to meal plans for the whole family, though myself and Dylan will eat together and daddy will have to reheat his food when he comes home after 7pm.

Trying to make our 1 bed flat work for the 3 of us, and keep Dylan safe. There is a gate at the top of the stairs (though we were told it wasn’t possible to have one) but we have to be super careful with it and we stuff a pillow down the gap and it works for us, we got a guard for the kitchen door as our doorways are narrow and couldn’t find anything that didn’t require drilling & fitting so had to get a guard instead, to be used when cooking so that Dylan can see me if he plays with some toys on the landing. The door remains closed, unless I’m going out there and let Dylan follow me and we also have some catches on the cupboard doors now, so thankfully no more pulling out his food out of the cupboard! The lounge is still a work in progress so his travel cot remains up so that I can put him in there if I need to do something where he can’t follow me.

By | 2017-05-23T20:25:05+00:00 September 15th, 2014|General|0 Comments

10 months

It was a little sad celebrating Dylan’s 10 month milestone when it turned out to be the day that Robin Williams passed away.  Photos of him just seem to be a blur these days. I want to update my cover photo on Facebook but long gone are the days he would stay where he was put!

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I think this was the closest I could get to a photo that I could use!  That face melts me every time.

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Can’t really get cuddles much either, as he constantly wants to be on his feet but hasn’t found his balance yet. But he sure loves tickles! We are also on tooth number 3! (They are like buses!)

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I adore Curious George, and no matter what we are doing, at 8am we stop to watch George. I find there is something strangely comforting about this show, I just love it and I cannot for the life of me put my finger on what it is. For me, the day is off to a bad start if we do not watch George.

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My fitbit needed sprucing up, so I did this which has since come off, but that will be for another post I’m sure, as I have had my fitbit since 2nd January so I should do a post about it!

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S, how is the weight loss going?  Pretty well I’d say! Over a stone off (148lbs starting, currently another lb off so 133lb currently) and just 1 more stone to go! Slow and steady wins the race after all 😉 This does mean I am going to have to go clothes shopping :/ I really dislike clothes shopping!

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As for the job hunting? Meh, do not ask. I have been on 1 interview which I still haven’t heard back about and have managed to apply for the same 1 job on 3 different occasions.

By | 2017-05-23T20:25:05+00:00 August 19th, 2014|Family, General|1 Comment

Library Lovin’

I’m not entirely sure when it started, but for a very long time, I have loved libraries. I turned my bookcase at home into a library, cutting out little “tickets” out of sugar paper with the name and author of the book and kept it tucked inside each one and when any family member would borrow the book, I would take the ticket and put it in a little paper “pocket” with their name on. No due dates or late fees in my little library, and I always kept my books in immaculate condition.

I desperately wanted to apply to be a librarian at my primary school for our tiny little room which housed the school books, but I wasn’t chosen and I was really upset. That was remedied just a mere couple of years later during my first year at secondary school there was a notice to be librarian at lunch times to a much more impressive, larger and busy school library than I had ever seen. We had to apply and then attend an actual job interview, but I knew I wanted to get the position so desperately!

The job was mine, and how I relished it! I would gobble up my packed lunch as fast as I could and head on to the library to help out, even if I wasn’t supposed to be working there that day. Everyone else had numerous sports pins attached to their school jumpers to show off, but I proudly had my librarian one on mine. Still to this day I have that little badge tucked away to remind me of my very first “job” that I loved so much.
I don’t know whether it was the organisation of the books, the little tickets and the wooden containers where each student had their paper “pocket”, in which we would place the tickets into, or even stamping the books with due dates and the big library index drawers at the back of the room that I loved so much, but even now it gives me goosebumps and warm fuzzies thinking about it!

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I also found out the other day that I can use ancestry website for free in libraries… I shall be leaving Dylan with his daddy one Saturday morning to take advantage!

My current book collection is slowly decreasing, there are some books I will never get rid of (witch child & the sorceress by Celia Rees to name but 2 that will stay with me in paper form!) space is a huge factor, so I have been focusing more on my kindle. Though sometimes you just cannot beat having an actual book in your hands. I do miss that with the kindle, and let’s face it, reading in the bath is a great winter activity, and I am butter fingers (but even though I put my kindle in a zip lock bag in case I did drop it, I am pleased to say – touch wood – that I never have as yet!)

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My mum used to take me and my brother to our local library when I was younger, and I was so excited to take Dylan for his first visit. The absolute kicker? He was asleep. My little insomniac child who often battles with me when it is nap time, had so much fun at the park that he was flat out in his pushchair. I clearly should have taken him before hand for such a momentous occasion! But even so, he had much fun diving into mummy’s library bag and pulling out the books I acquired on his behalf and we read the stories about spot along with the obligatory “My first books from the library” shot for his scrapbook 🙂 I excitedly got the “revenge wears prada” book out when I spotted it staring at me on the shelf. Of course, when am I going to get time to read it? Ha! I live in hope. But the reviews were not kind for that book so I most certainly couldn’t justify buying it for the kindle but curiosity told me, as devil wears prada is one of my favourite movies, that I just HAD to try it. So what better than going to my library and checking it out, proudly walking home with my library bag. Yes, I just love them that much 😉

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Dylan has his own little book bag, and we have a book start online account for him, as mummy has her Goodreads account 😉 Speaking of the little monkey, he is getting his second tooth through… and don’t we know it, my poor little guy! And as you can also see, his favourite thing to do lately is pull himself up into the standing position 🙂

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By | 2017-05-23T20:25:05+00:00 July 29th, 2014|General|0 Comments

July 2014 Daily Grind

Last Thursday I decided to do a “Day In The Life” as a snapshot of how life is at the moment with my monkey. It wasn’t entirely a normal every day for us as things went a bit squiffy in the morning which then has a knock on effect for the rest of the day, added in to the fact I decided to cut the grass as Dylan fell asleep on the walk home only to wake up once I had got everything out and I wasn’t about to put it all away again so he stayed quiet enough for me to quickly whip the mower round and head back in for a then belated lunch.

 

So check it out.

By | 2014-09-15T17:20:34+00:00 July 16th, 2014|General|0 Comments

Chocolate Crunch

I completely came across this recipe by accident, but when I spotted it, I decided I HAD to make it! I remembered it from school and I absolutely adored this, and shared it with my school friends on Facebook before we started reminiscing about lunch times eating it and pink custard… Which as it turns out isn’t even custard.

To save a bunch of washing up, I simply mixed the whole thing in the silicone tray that I was going to bake it in. It was super quick, simple and tasted just as I remembered it. I was quite surprised I managed to make the batch last a week! I saw some other recipes that showed eggs, but this one only uses plain flour, butter, sugar and cocoa, so it is nice and cheap too! I can see this being a comfort treat in the winters around here, as it certainly is good when warmed up 🙂

View the recipe here

By | 2014-07-09T13:25:42+00:00 July 9th, 2014|Crafts, General|0 Comments

Wait a minute!

I am not ready for it to be July yet! It’s only now having Dylan around, I realised how fast time truly goes. I look at him now and see less of a baby and more of a little boy with his own little personality.

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He loves the Bewitched introduction, and often stops what he is doing to watch it!

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He is coming on leaps and bounds, sits up unaided lovely and mostly enjoys holding on to hands so he can get up on to his feet and has got the hang of “walking” (with help of course!) even if he does look like he’s had a few LOL, he enjoys being on his feet! This is Dylan sitting in nanny & grampy’s caravan in the back garden:

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Speaking of caravans, we had our very first family holiday 🙂 Visit to the zoo, exploring the Devon Cliffs site, going on the beach and playing in the pool. I’m sure Dylan had a great time! Not a bad view from our lounge area either!

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But it’s back to reality now, and sorting out things going forward…

By | 2017-05-23T20:25:05+00:00 June 27th, 2014|Family, General|1 Comment

May

… Remember me…? I’m not going to give you the usual “it’s been crazy/busy/hectic” (though it has been).
I have been filling times being pinned to the sofa with a baby who refuses to sleep so I often get my glasses whacked off my face as I wrestle him into submission and he finally drifts to sleep and then I have been working on my family tree as well as having Disney videos (Phil, Emma and Ben ones, Steph & Jeff ones, and SeeYaReelSoon ones all on YouTube).
My family tree on ancestry has an impressive 188 people on it, the furthest I have traced back to are my 4 times great grandparents on my mum’s side but I still have to find their birth years & through the community I have for information from a few people who are distant relatives of mine, the most recent being a gentleman whose grandfather was the brother of my 2 times great grandfather. I am waiting on a letter from my grand aunt in Australia for information on her father as he has me completely stumped, and I sent her pictures of Dylan too 🙂 once I have that information I will be using my 14 day free ancestry trial which I have been saving for when I hit the wall and cannot find anymore information as I have been doing it all using their free access weekends though its limited in the records you have access to. I would also love to know about my great grand uncle who died in 1916 by accidental drowning while in the navy. I clearly have been spending far too much time watching lots of episodes of “who do you think you are” whilst stuck on the sofa!

I so wished I was having the time to work on Dylan’s album… According to that I am still pregnant and just had my 12 week scan so I am terribly behind, but unless it’s on the telly or I can do it on my phone, it seems lately it just isn’t being done. Otherwise I run errands, play with Dylan, try and squeeze some housework in and then to get Dylan to nap I hold him in my arms and catch up on my shows (teen mom 3, generation cryo, goodnight sweetheart, the upper hand, who do you think you are & undercover boss). It has got to stop though, ditto the taking up the entire double bed at night time, and he will be forced to sleep in the cot.

Thankfully at baby group I met a mummy who lives around the corner from me with her daughter who has got me into a course for “Learning through play” for 2 hours a week with a free creche (it’s fab, we spend about an hour or so going over syllabus and then spend time with the children in the creche and do an activity with them) and this week I also started a cookery group at another local school which also has a free creche.

It’s hard to get my head around the fact Dylan is now 7 months old! Time has disappeared away from me. I have a mere 2 months left of maternity leave left and then I need to find a new job, and we are also going to look at moving as we are only in a 1 bed flat. It’s all getting really overwhelming thinking about it all.

By | 2014-05-29T17:08:07+00:00 May 13th, 2014|Family, General|0 Comments