April 2015

Well this post has been long overdue. I’ve even had all intentions of writing a planner related post, but I’ve had a lot of stuff going on these last few months, for example:

  • The CBT course I took for 6 weeks
  • 2 nieces born
  • Dealing with my anxiety in general
  • Settling into work
  • Housework

 

I’m still trying to learn how to get by on very little & broken sleep. Just the previous night Dylan didn’t finally properly settle until 3am, and I know I am certainly not the same person because of being exhausted and tired all the time, and it’s hard. So many people comment how tired he looks but for some reason to him sleep is the enemy. I get better nights when he only wakes up twice but for a long time now he refuses to sleep in his cot or only manages a very short period in there, and the rest of the night I’m being kicked in the ribs. Both me & Dylan manage to sleep a lot better when he actually does go down in his cot (that’s the nights he only wakes twice) but they do not happen nearly enough.

He’s had his first “trim” courtesy of daddy while I was at work:

He likes to post things into the VCR, and he liked to wear mummy’s headband (until he snapped it this morning)

I have to double check the washing machine before I put on a wash.

He’s looking so grown up!

and even tries to dress himself!

I have been battling the clutter in our flat. It’s something that has needed to be done for a long time. I read “the life changing magic of tidying up” and started taking a few tips for now just to get things in order to make moving a little easier, when we do move. Then once we have moved we will have a better idea of where things will go and if we need to rid even more things.

So long January

My little monkey hardly ever sits still and he has the cheesiest grin! But don’t let it fool you. Within the blink of an eye, he can go from angelic looking to full on meltdown. They fail to mention that the “terrible twos” start from about 14/15 months old! I spend my days running after him, he most certainly keeps me on my toes! As for his sleep, well that is still very much an issue. He refuses to go down, he has split my lip on multiple occasions where the just thrashes about, and when he does go to sleep, he is back up just hours later. It simply seems that he is a bad sleeper, end of. Nothing I could do would change it, so I just have to go with the flow and if it means he ends up in bed with me by about 3am, then that’s what I have to do.

He even got his first shoes. We tried a couple of pairs on him, and the first pair he struggled to walk in as they seemed pretty heavy for his feet so we chose the airplane ones instead. We need to get him remeasured again now as it has been over a month.

On top of looking after Dylan, I have been cooking for the both of us too (seems daddy wasn’t too eager to try the butternut squash soup! My mum is going to try it so is coming over after work to get the last serving and I have 2 pots in the freezer for later) I had never had butternut squash before, but I cooked it anyway. Dylan is funny with his food lately… Unless he can grab it and feed it to himself, he doesn’t want to know, but I managed to get him to have a few spoonfuls and he happily dipped bread in it too and gobbled it up.

And I made some wholemeal cheese straws. All the recipes came from the Ella’s Kitchen Cookbook (both of these were from the RED book, though we have the yellow baking book too. I didn’t get on with Annabel Karmel book, and Dylan adored the Ella’s Kitchen pouches so it seemed a winner!) These are some pretty good straws, and I’m guessing because they are wholemeal, it must be better for us… right? 😉

I have been relying on my planners lots and things are improving anxiety wise 🙂 I have my book checked out of the library for the course which starts on my birthday. I have a lovely gold planner coming from China (£9!) and as my journal went walkies somewhere… Everything seems to be going missing, it’s so cramped in here that some things we are just figuring will be found when we finally move. Any who, as my journal went walkies and I cannot for the life of me find it anywhere, I also bought a “fauxbonichi” and a zippered case to keep it in 😀 That’s what my Christmas money went on. I will be doing a post when it arrives!

Normalcy

We have a walker on our hands! Last week after a while of taking one step and thinking better of it, Dylan decided to show off to his girlfriend when they were on their play date and took not just a few steps but a whole bunch of them! I knew he could do it and just needed the confidence to do it 😀 We didn’t get to go see the Coca Cola truck on the tour because of he has been really suffering with his gums, but after a few very very bad nights, he actually slept pretty well: Saturday night, he self settled on his one and only wake up of the night. It was much needed!

I have embraced the planner world and I feel like I am regaining control. I have an Erin Condren Life Planner which is the home planner, and will be a keepsake and as a documentation of our year:

and I have this compact Saffiano Filofax, which I managed to get really cheap thanks to a heads up from the girls on the UK Planner Addicts community on Facebook, with a December trial of DIYfish v3s1. As it is a compact it will be kept in the bag for out & about. The inserts from fish are absolutely brilliant, I was looking over the catalogue trying to figure out what would be a good insert for me at the moment and I chose the weekly on 2 pages (v3) as day on 2 pages was a bit overkill for what I needed. It was a toss up between style 1 and 5, but I chose 1 for December. May choose 5 for January though and decide which one is the best from there 🙂

I got a job! You may remember back on the post “Countdown Begins” that I wrote about a job that I was keeping my fingers crossed for? That’s the one I got! I had a phone interview and when I didn’t hear anything back within the 5-7 days, I called them up before being asked in for a face-to-face interview on the Thursday and was called with a job offer on the Monday before starting Saturday. A lot to take in, especially on 3 hours sleep (my poor little guy and his gums) on my first day but luckily it was health & safety and forms to fill in, and my very first shift is actually this Saturday. But looking forward to getting into the swing of things and settling into a new routine.

And I got new shoes from work:

Currently | November

Feeling tired. A Hanson Christmas streaming that started at 12.20am might have had a little to do with it, but it had to be done. The last one was a few years ago, so I certainly didn’t want to miss it, though I did turn it off at 1am to go to bed so missed the rest.

Attending an interview tomorrow… Eeeeek! Wish me luck

Watching Million Dollar Listing NYC. It’s on Tuesday to Friday, and I have only 3 episodes left. At least I still have 13 more episodes of Melissa & Joey left which is on Monday to Thursday!

Loving planners. Pins on Pinterest, Pictures on Instagram, Facebook group… I was given a tip on some Filofaxes going for silly prices in Homesense and I picked up the only one I liked the look of which was a Purple compact Saffiano. But I have heard about Dokibooks and would quite like one of them as they are super cheap 🙂

Perusing the Ella’s Kitchen baking book. Thinking of asking santa for the Cooking Book for Dylan this Christmas. He’s so much better with his food, it is quite a comfort. On Friday I sat down on the floor next to him and we both ate pasta bolognese that I cooked for us. He loved it 🙂

Listening to this year’s new Hanson Christmas song: “Finally It’s Christmas”. Love it!

Thinking that I am looking forward to Christmas, and that if I do get this job then things will be more stable. The uncertainty of knowing things would have to change at some point and not being able to settle into some sort of routine until that moment were the things that were getting me down most.

mmmbisto's Homemade Gifts Board on Pinterest: Gift ideas for everyone and for every budget!

Homemade Gifts Pinterest Board

mmmbisto's Homemade Gifts Board on Pinterest: Gift ideas for everyone and for every budget!

I have been working on this board for about 3 years and have amassed 656 pins and counting, with 737 followers and growing daily. I am super proud of this board, and so what better way of sharing it, than creating a pin for the board itself!

Gifts include:

  • Food & sweets
  • Toys
  • Jewellery
  • Clothes
  • Children dress up
  • Stationery
  • Toilettries
  • Homewares
  • Games
  • Accessories
  • and many more

Gifts for:

  • Mum
  • Dad
  • Babies
  • Toddlers
  • Children
  • Teens
  • Grandparents
  • Friends

All the pins are for all types of budgets, and all skill levels from packaging up store bought items (ie. Gifts in a jar, hampers etc) to making items from scratch, and for all occasions from Christmas, Mothers day, Fathers day, birthdays etc.

Some of the pins have links with How Tos and some of them are for inspiration 🙂 Hope you enjoy!

 

CLICK HERE TO GO TO THE PINTEREST BOARD

T’is the season

So Movies 24 changed over to Christmas 24, and both myself and Dylan sat and watched the Coca Cola Christmas advert together for the first time (for this Christmas) this week too. Now before you all start telling me “But it’s the beginning of November for heavens sake!!” Hear me out.

I have not been in a good place lately. It has been a mixture of a bad UC flare up, getting nowhere with job hunting (even though I had an e-mail last week and got excited as I was being put forward for a job by an agency… and haven’t heard a thing since and the general rule is if you don’t hear anything within 5 days it means “Thanks, but no thanks,”) on top of Dylan being super upset and not good himself and has since been put on a new medicine, plus as I haven’t been successful and found a job yet I had to have a review meeting at the job centre. And my parents went away on holiday with my brother and his family so I didn’t have them around. I ended up in a spiral of anxiety, feeling like I could barely breathe. It was at that point I phoned the doctors in tears. Enough was enough. The constant broken sleep night after night after night took its toll on me months and months ago, I most certainly am not the same person I used to be. I forget a lot of things and I am grumpy. My poor husband has been having to deal with the trains as well, lots of delays and cancellations this last fortnight after a long hard day at work, and then having to come home and comfort me. I needed to ask for help.

I still put on a smiling face to everyone, but once the door was closed, I would sit cuddling my gorgeous little boy and just burst into tears. We also got some terrible news in my birth group, and as daft as it sounds as we all only know each other online but we all consider ourselves friends including our children – as each of our kids are also “online friends” as far as we are all concerned. We have all been together as a group since we all got a positive test. Posting pictures and updates ever since so watching all of these babies becoming little people in their own right… and one of the little boys died on Halloween. It affected us all so much, and I absolutely broke down. I couldn’t imagine what his poor mother was going through. I found out on the Saturday and I gave Dylan extra hugs and kisses and held him so tightly.

With everything that was going on, I needed to try and get out of this hole. I have a doctors appointment this Friday for support. I have thrown myself into the world of planners, which with my memory of late can only be a good thing! I was having a pretty good day UC wise today so I ventured out to a baby group for the first time in months. While I was a bit apprehensive at first, it was at the library (and everyone knows how much I love the library!) and there was a familiar face taking the group which I didn’t realise it until I got there. And of course, my favourite time of year is Christmas so I have started all Christmassy things early. Except the decorations! Just movies and songs and thinking about Christmas here at the moment. Oh, and Hanson are doing a live streaming at the end of the month called “Finally it’s Christmas”, and I have such great memories from the last xmas live streaming that I will get up to watch this one. All the other live streamings I have passed on because I much rather have the sleep as much as I love the guys.
I’m also so in love with modern calligraphy, and Gareth bought me a calligraphy set one Christmas and I need to find it and get it out so I can play with it one weekend and do the class on Skillshare.

Dylan himself, apart from his teething and the battles we have trying to get him to go to sleep, is doing OK. We are having the toddler tantrums, he had a butterfly jigsaw puzzle for his birthday and he carries the face piece (the wooden cylinder in his left hand in the photo above) everywhere he goes. He is obsessed with that thing. And turning off the socket with the house phone in because everytime I switch it back on, it beeps, and so he loves it (as much as I tell him off for doing it)! His favourite food is blueberries. I keep a baggy of them in the freezer and put them in his pot straight after breakfast to defrost ready to have with his lunch. Then they are nice and soft for them to eat, and I always put extra in it so I can steal a few too 😉

We are getting there.

Countdown begins…

3 days. 3 freaking days! My not-so-little-anymore baby turns 1 on Saturday! This past year has been incredibly… I don’t even know the right word as it was just a mish mash of emotions.

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“Seriously mum? Must you insist on taking photos all the time…?” He looks so grown up!

He has for quite a few nights been so clingy that I reverted back to co-sleeping if he absolutely would not sleep in his cot. He is really out of sorts with his cold and teething. Poor little dude. But doesn’t he look so handsome with his hair styled after his bath? LOL

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Dylan loves playing with his cousins. He got to hang out with little cousin Oscar on Gareth’s birthday at a big soft play in Cardiff.

Oscar & Dylan

and lots of attention from his big cousins Elijah and Oliver too! Here he is being tickled by Elijah.

Dylan & Elijah

 

We shall be having a small tea party for his birthday with Gareth’s family. Super grateful that Gareth, Dylan and myself will get to spend the day together for his birthday 🙂

At the moment I am lucky that the monkey is napping in his cot at the moment so I can get all my paperwork up together for the job centre as I have an appointment tomorrow. This fortnight has seen another 5 applications made, and currently one rejection but hearing anything back is quite rare, but at least getting that rejection means you know where you stand. There is one job in that 5 I am keeping everything crossed for. It is weekend work pretty close to home and more than minimum wage in retail and I put my CV in to the store last week.

But all the stressing about everything has had consequences and that is my colitis is flaring. I am putting off phoning the IBD team at hospital for now by upping my meds to what they were originally (3 caps, once a day was keeping symptoms at bay and the nurses agreed for me to keep it at that, so I’m back to 3 caps, twice a day).

Just need to keep a positive outlook on everything.

Currently | September

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Watching (kiddy shows) Jake & The Neverland Pirates, Curious George, (mummy shows) Tia & Tamera, The 100, new CSI, Bewitched, Melissa & Joey.

Feeling overwhelmed still, trying to juggle job searching and spending time with Dylan. And tired, though we are down to 2 wake ups at night minimum, it’s still exhausting.

Planning on doing something with the old blog, even though I say it all the time, I really REALLY need to get started on something.

Wondering how many times I need to say “NO! Don’t do that because…” to Dylan before he actually listens. His favourites are grabbing the bin and pulling it over to get at the rubbish inside, pulling DVDs off the shelves.

Disbelieving that he turns 1 in a mere 3 and a half weeks!

Waiting for autumn. The leaves have begun to change, and funnily enough this has only been my favourite season for the last couple of years 🙂

Wishing I could play my Sims game. So little time, and it doesn’t agree with the Mac very much, but so many memories dating back to my college days when I first started playing the original Sims. Not very interested in the Sims 4 at the moment.

Devising a plan of action for next week, when it comes to meal plans for the whole family, though myself and Dylan will eat together and daddy will have to reheat his food when he comes home after 7pm.

Trying to make our 1 bed flat work for the 3 of us, and keep Dylan safe. There is a gate at the top of the stairs (though we were told it wasn’t possible to have one) but we have to be super careful with it and we stuff a pillow down the gap and it works for us, we got a guard for the kitchen door as our doorways are narrow and couldn’t find anything that didn’t require drilling & fitting so had to get a guard instead, to be used when cooking so that Dylan can see me if he plays with some toys on the landing. The door remains closed, unless I’m going out there and let Dylan follow me and we also have some catches on the cupboard doors now, so thankfully no more pulling out his food out of the cupboard! The lounge is still a work in progress so his travel cot remains up so that I can put him in there if I need to do something where he can’t follow me.

10 months

It was a little sad celebrating Dylan’s 10 month milestone when it turned out to be the day that Robin Williams passed away.  Photos of him just seem to be a blur these days. I want to update my cover photo on Facebook but long gone are the days he would stay where he was put!

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I think this was the closest I could get to a photo that I could use!  That face melts me every time.

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Can’t really get cuddles much either, as he constantly wants to be on his feet but hasn’t found his balance yet. But he sure loves tickles! We are also on tooth number 3! (They are like buses!)

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I adore Curious George, and no matter what we are doing, at 8am we stop to watch George. I find there is something strangely comforting about this show, I just love it and I cannot for the life of me put my finger on what it is. For me, the day is off to a bad start if we do not watch George.

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My fitbit needed sprucing up, so I did this which has since come off, but that will be for another post I’m sure, as I have had my fitbit since 2nd January so I should do a post about it!

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S, how is the weight loss going?  Pretty well I’d say! Over a stone off (148lbs starting, currently another lb off so 133lb currently) and just 1 more stone to go! Slow and steady wins the race after all 😉 This does mean I am going to have to go clothes shopping :/ I really dislike clothes shopping!

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As for the job hunting? Meh, do not ask. I have been on 1 interview which I still haven’t heard back about and have managed to apply for the same 1 job on 3 different occasions.